Today was interesting. Interesting in that it has scared me and made me more confused about the path I am on as a mother even more so than I ever was before. My son had his first visit with a counselor and during this visit he had a hallucination…..He has NEVER before had anything like that in front of me nor told me of anything like that in his life. This to me was very strange and scary as I didn’t know what was going on. He continued to try to interact with the vision he was having by poking it.
So now I am on the path of trying to figure out if this is real or if this is a game. I am terrified of the dark rabbit hole that this could possibly be if it is real. COS aka Childhood Onset Schizophrenia is a a neuro-disorder that is sometimes associated with ASD. It is rare but that doesn’t exclude the possibility of it being a thing with him. To say that I am concerned is putting it mildly. He has given me a history of his past visions and voices that he has experienced in his life. I am notating these for his counselor as our homework with him. So essentially anytime he sees or hears something that isn’t really there he has to tell me so I can notate it down for him in a journal I’m keeping on my iPad. The most recent one was a flying banana in the bedroom with us. These coming days and weeks will be interesting as we go further into the unknown and the possibilities that it holds. I’m sure this will have more posts in the future.